FORTY WEEKS
Posted on: Saturday
His due date has come and gone, and still we wait for his birthday to be revealed. We've washed the baby clothes, stocked up on cloth diaper covers, and folded the swaddles. The birth tub sits in the hallway next to a stack of old towels, waiting to be inflated. The fridge and cupboards brim with food (& the freezer with ice cream). And in these chilly February days, we wait.
My sister Emmy is visiting for a few days to help around the house and hopefully assist in "catching" the baby when the time comes. With everything prepared at home, we've been trying to get out and venture around the city as much as possible these past couple of days. Uptown, downtown, museum mile, grocery shopping, subway adventures.. we are making the rounds of NYC, and hoping to coax this little boy out while we're at it by walking as much as humanly possible. Biet is simply smitten with our new adventure partner (and also with the sudden influx of delicious home-cooked meals and freshly-baked cookies that she has infused our apartment with), and I love laying here in bed at the end of the day knowing that my big sister is in just the next room, instead of across the country.
Emmy and Gaby helped me with my forty week photo shoot in our living room, and I am overwhelmed with the results. It may take me a while to filter through and pick out my favorites, but I am instantly in love with this shot- with this captured moment between Biet and I. She will be such a treasure of a sister. I also see my bulging pregnant belly and I know that no matter how fiercely I long to see this little boy's face (and let me tell you, I am absolutely dying to meet him), I will miss being pregnant when it is over. These last few days are truly a sacred time.
STAYING BUSY, COUNTING DOWN
Posted on: Tuesday






The below freezing days have been piling upon one another lately, rendering us homebodies doing our best to stay entertained indoors most days and evenings. When we do venture out, a brisk walk with Nico around the block is all it takes to transform our fingertips into icicles, so we've been leisurely finding fun ways to pass the time inside. For Biet, this mostly means dancing to her two favorite albums over and over and over again (I love Little Richard and The Beatles, but really, how many times can you shriek with excitement at the sound of the same song?), and chasing Nico relentlessly. For me, sorting itty bitty second-hand baby clothes, re-organizing the furniture in the living room (again), and daydreaming about his arrival helps pass the time. Two days. Two days until due date. Of course I know that it could be two hours, or two weeks, or anything in between, but the arrival of his estimated due date will be such a monumental event that I can't help but notice the minutes ticking by. The twenty-first of February is a day that has been in the forefront of our minds for three quarters of a year. If he has arrived by then, I will be in heaven. And if not, I have decided to do a major pregnancy photo shoot on that day. I never got around to doing it with Biet when I was still pregnant on her due date, and then she was born the very next day, but I would love to document my body after 40 weeks of pregnancy. Because its kind of truly amazing that my body can transform, stretch, and grow a human being for 40 weeks, and I want to honor that. So whether or not baby boy is here by my due date, it will be a beautiful day. I cannot wait.
LITTLE GIRL ON THE BIG COUCH
Posted on: Monday

Morning-faced, waiting for Papa to make breakfast, stretching on the big couch with her sister dog... this is what Biet looks like at the start of the day. This old tufted sofa, which Gaby and I found on 23rd street for $100, was where I laid just after Biet was born. I sank into the cushions, new baby to my breast, while our midwife instructed Gaby how to cut the cord. He proudly and nervously and bravely did, and the midwife fastened a little belly button clip, and my baby was free- free to begin becoming her own person. Now this miraculous little person climbs onto the same sofa, book in hand, and "reads" to herself in the morning while Papa runs the house and Mama sleeps in. Once in a while she'll pull herself up, snuggle back into a corner, and just sit, observing the apartment- her home, her kingdom. And sometimes she'll beckon Nico to join her, patting the cushion excitedly until Nico leaps up and settles in next to her. Yes, this couch has seen a lot. We could have never imagined how this tattered and antiquated sofa would become so important to our family. We just might have to keep it forever.
{Can you imagine a whole row of little ones, and not so little ones, squeezed in next to one another along this old sofa, sitting smallest to biggest? I know baby-crazy Gaby certainly can. For now, I'm imagining two. And I won't have to imagine for long :) }
LITTLE THINGS
Posted on: Friday
Slowly but surely our apartment is coming together and beginning to feel like a true home.. a lived in, slightly messy, bright & artistic home. Sure pictures must still be hung and a couple of cupboards must be re-organized and a few piles of outgrown baby clothes must be stored away, but we're almost there. Finally. The unfamiliar sense of chaos and disorder which accompanies moving has nearly completely dissipated, and we are left with a peaceful old home and a rambunctious new family. Here are a few little things that make me feel at home in our humble abode (full apartment tour posts coming soon!)..














URBAN HOMESTEADING
Posted on: Wednesday
For a few wonderful years when I was a tiny little child, around pre-school time, my sisters and I lived with my Mom's sister & her family in Portland, Oregon. We all lived in a whimsical old three-story house, painted light blue, with a big porch out front with a wooden swing. There was a costume box in the attic of my Mother's old clothes that we used to play dress up with, a huge 1970-esque mural (painted years prior by my artist Mother) in our shared bedroom, a piano in the family room (which I looked forward to learning how to play one day when I grew up, but we ended up moving on to another home before that ever happened), a "servant's staircase" (did I mention it was a lovely old house) behind the main stairs that was perfect for sneaking into the kitchen late at night for a forbidden spoonful of peanut butter dipped in chocolate chips, and a breathtaking garden in the backyard. Oh that garden. My Aunt Pam knew a thing or two about growing things, let me tell you.
We had it all: carrots & zucchinis & tomatoes, herbs of all sorts, root vegetables and stalky vegetables and leafy vegetables, the works! Each night before dinner, my sisters and I would venture into the garden to pick ingredients for the family. I used to love putting freshly rinsed lettuce into the salad spinner and going to town. Lisa and I would laugh and laugh as it spun faster and faster. Nobody could spin it as fast as Emmy though (granted, she did have four years on me of salad-spinning experience). After dinner we would run into the backyard with our full bellies and swing in the rope hammock that swayed from the trunks of two cherry trees. Those were truly magical years.
And then we moved on, and moved on again, and Portland became a place in my memories. And as I grew I discovered my love of the city; I learned that urban life made me feel truly alive. And so I made NYC my home, with its grit and its bricks and its history. And my daughter was born right in the heart of downtown.
But lately I find myself reminiscing about those homemade, garden-grown, earthy Portland years.
I realize that they aren't so far behind. Here I am, picking up our share of vegetables straight from the farm at our CSA, chatting with the Pennsylvanian organic farmer, who lovingly grows our food, about tomato varieties. I spend quite a lot of time washing and steaming and pureeing Biet's food, everything fresh, everything home-made. It just feels right that way. Our friends thought we were crazy when we told them that we planned to cloth diaper. They said that we'd never make it. But here we are, 12 months and counting.. and rinsing and washing and folding away. And now I've begun a new endeavor: to eliminate all pre-made food from our home. I will be rinsing and soaking and boiling a variety of beans and grains each week so that we'll always have whole foods in our home, ready to go and made with love.
Gaby calls me a hippy Mama. He tells me all the time "I love that you're a hippy Mama." And I always brush it off as Gaby being sweetly dramatic. Because I am a city girl. A city girl who just happens to enjoy sustainable ways of life. Then our neighbors invited us to help create a garden in the lot out front of our limestone, and I jumped with joy. Finally, I will grow my very own carrots! Eureka!
A. City. Girl... who just happens to view carrot-growing as the highlight of her summer.. who encourages her daughter to crawl around naked and eat grass in the backyard (I mean, how many years do you really have to enjoy doing that before it becomes slightly inappropriate).. who foresees the day when home-prepared beans and grains will be joined by home-jarred pickles and jams and hand-ground flours (ok.. getting a little carried away).
A girl who loves the city and loves her family and loves to homestead. A girl who can't forget the simple magic and wonder of picking your own vegetables for dinner. A girl who is a Mama and who wants to pass on that magic and wonder to her daughter.
I guess I'll call myself an urban homesteader in training.. who's looking forward to learning a lot this summer.
xx
A Weekend of Silence + Noise
Posted on: Monday

Little Things
Posted on: Thursday
A close-up look at our apartment life.. Here are some of the little things that make me feel at home:
We Will Survive
Posted on: Wednesday
I must digress from my usual optimism, because it's been one of those days. The kind of day where everything seems to be falling apart, luck is nowhere to be found, and life seems to be going impossibly wrong. It's actually been one of those kind of weeks. Come to think of it, 2012, so far, has been full of unexpected dire news. From unwanted career changes, to personal health concerns, to anxiety-inducing apartment trouble. Then, to top it all off, our financial rug was suddenly pulled out from under us with no warning. It's days like this when I question my past decisions, and worry. Why didn't we save more? Did we really need to go on vacation a couple of months ago? {answer: absolutely. It was so very important that Biet meet her extended family} Are we in the right careers? Are we in the right apartment? Did we choose the right neighborhood? Why do bad things always seem to happen in threes? Why can't our family just get a break?
I have been worrying myself sick all day. Days like this are no fun. And then I look over and see baby girl, sitting on the couch and absolutely fascinated with a metal measuring cup, laughing and singing and simply happy to be alive. I want to work as hard as I possibly can to give her all that she needs, to keep her world magical and pure and full of love. I want to teach her to see the world with wonder, not fear. And I realize that she has some things to teach me too. I know that if she could speak, she would tell me "Mama, don't worry. It will all be ok. Now lets go have some oatmeal." But for now she says it with her eyes. So we went to the table and had some oatmeal together.
And I told her how thankful I am for her company. I am so grateful that she is such a healthy little girl. We may be stressed out at the moment about all sorts of grown-up mumbo jumbo, but we've never had to worry for a second about Biet's health and wellbeing. And that is huge. Its what really matters.
Maybe our lives are all up in the air for a reason. Maybe all of this stress is pushing us, in a roundabout way, towards good change. A more structured life? More creative careers? A closer family (if that's even possible)? I am trying to take a cue from baby girl. I am trying to remember and appreciate all that is good and balanced in our lives. I am reminding myself of the enormous amount of love within our home. We are a family of tough cookies. We will work night and day to get through these times. We will survive. And one day, we will sit together at the table and laugh about the hard times past, over oatmeal.
I have been worrying myself sick all day. Days like this are no fun. And then I look over and see baby girl, sitting on the couch and absolutely fascinated with a metal measuring cup, laughing and singing and simply happy to be alive. I want to work as hard as I possibly can to give her all that she needs, to keep her world magical and pure and full of love. I want to teach her to see the world with wonder, not fear. And I realize that she has some things to teach me too. I know that if she could speak, she would tell me "Mama, don't worry. It will all be ok. Now lets go have some oatmeal." But for now she says it with her eyes. So we went to the table and had some oatmeal together.
And I told her how thankful I am for her company. I am so grateful that she is such a healthy little girl. We may be stressed out at the moment about all sorts of grown-up mumbo jumbo, but we've never had to worry for a second about Biet's health and wellbeing. And that is huge. Its what really matters.
Maybe our lives are all up in the air for a reason. Maybe all of this stress is pushing us, in a roundabout way, towards good change. A more structured life? More creative careers? A closer family (if that's even possible)? I am trying to take a cue from baby girl. I am trying to remember and appreciate all that is good and balanced in our lives. I am reminding myself of the enormous amount of love within our home. We are a family of tough cookies. We will work night and day to get through these times. We will survive. And one day, we will sit together at the table and laugh about the hard times past, over oatmeal.
Good Morning Brooklyn
Posted on: Sunday
We have arrived. All four of us. And we are safe and happy and exhausted and adjusting to new routines in our new neighborhood. Hello Brooklyn! You are quite something. You seem a bit rough and tumble from afar, but are so very different up close. You may not have as many skyscrapers as Manhattan, but your buildings are ancient and quaint (with nice BIG apartments inside). Your parks are lush, your streets narrow, your skyline expansive, your people loud, and your pride palpable. You have hustle and bustle, and quiet neighborhoods too. We landed somewhere right in the middle. You also have flea markets & farmers markets & horses & beaches & elevated subways & docks & every kind of food imaginable. I am just getting to know you, Brooklyn, but so far I think I like you.
Our short journey here from across the river was comically disastrous. Beginning with our belongings not fitting into the 17 foot truck we rented and ending with the elevator being broken upon our arrival. In between, another moving truck smashed into us on the Bowery and shattered the window on me (luckily, baby girl and her Papa weren't riding with me), it started raining, and our new apartment wasn't quite finished being renovated. We are just now beginning to laugh at it all. All I can say is THANK YOU DEAR FRIENDS. An army of our amazing friends showed up at our place on moving day morning, coffees in hand, and jumped right in. They carried all of our furniture and boxes, took care of Biet & Nico, and kept our spirits high through each unforeseen setback. We quite literally could not have done it without them. We are so grateful to have such an amazing family of friends in the city.
Now we've been here a week. The apartment is slowly coming together, and the blog is back up and running (it was on hold for a while due to switching internet providers & losing/packing the computer charger). My favorite thing about our new space, so far, is the sunlight. The sun pours in from the big Brooklyn sky into every room of our apartment. It makes me want to take photographs all day. And it is simply lovely to wake up to in the morning. I think baby girl feels the same way.
The Block

I am truly and dearly in love with our block. We live across the street from an ivy-covered cemetery and next door to a majestic church. I often find myself staring out the window at the cemetery, with it's ancient tombstones & gated garden. When I was pregnant with Biet, Gaby and I would walk through it and stop at each grave to read the dusty centuries-old engravings. We were still trying to find a name for our little Poppyseed (Biet's in-utero moniker) and hoped to come across a long-forgotten gem. Every morning, I hear the birds who live in the cemetery trees chirping as they awake. You could walk by this block a thousand times & never know it's serene charm until the day you turn the corner & walk down the street. It feels like a quiet European side street, yet it is here in the center of Manhattan.
I love that we have the kind of neighbors who you really can borrow a cup of sugar from (not easy to find in this city). I love that we also have the kind of neighbors who make music and art and laughter until the wee hours of the morning. I love the smell of our block, especially when the seasons are changing. I love the old beat-up seafoam-green 1970's Cadillac that's always parked outside of our building (I've never actually seen someone drive it- but it always changes the side of the street for street-sweeping). I love each & every character of our small block; from the old man who sits under the shade of the big tree across the street and feeds the passing dogs peanuts, to the Priest of the church who always waves hello and blesses us, to Helen who brings her accordion in the mornings to play music for the birds.
But, more than anything, I love that this is the block on which Biet was born.
This was our first apartment that became a true home. Gaby and I fixed up the place together, found all of our furniture second-hand, framed our family pictures and nailed them to the wall, and turned this little tenement railroad apartment into the beautiful eclectic home that it is today. In this apartment, here on this magical little block, I became a painter, an electrician, a woodworker, a seamstress, a designer, a blogger, a business-owner, and a mother. We raised Nico from a puppy to a real dog here. We birthed our daughter here. We became a family here. And I have loved every moment of it.
And now it is time to move on. Where to? We're not sure yet, but in a couple of months we will be rolling up our belongings and heading to a new block, in a new neighborhood, & possibly in a new borough (!). It is bittersweet. I will miss our block with all of it's quirky charm. But there is a new space and a new landscape and new characters to meet, just waiting for us! Now that we've built our home we can take it with us, wherever we please.
I will take Biet back to this block many times throughout her life. I will introduce her to the neighbors who are still around. We will sit in front of the cemetery and I'll point up at the second story window of the brick building across the street and say, "Honey Pie, see those two windows on the right? Those were the windows of our big, bright bedroom, where we laid with you on our bed when you were only minutes old. Behind those windows, beyond the bedroom, is a long dark living room, where your Papa cut your cord. And behind that is a pink-tiled kitchen, where you were born in a tub and took your first breath."
So even though we are leaving this block which I love so dearly, Biet will always be able to walk here and glance up at our building and feel at home. In a way, this block will always be hers.


Naps
Posted on: Saturday
Once in awhile, in the afternoon, we open up the bedroom windows wide, call Nico onto the bed, put on a record, and take a nap. Biet usually lays on Gaby's chest. My very favorite is napping during a summer thunder storm, like today. The rumbling of rain & hail fills the apartment, the street noise is drowned out, and we rest, safe & warm, on our bed, as a family.






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